[Thinking] Dream and Chance

Nowadays, I am so stressful coz of cares about my dream.. what I gonna do for a living?
Well... I like a film and wanna be a film director in the future. It may be the reason I am studying this hard course. I have tried to abandon it so many times but a reality of life doesn't let me do. It's so ironic that even though I decided to study it in my choice, I can't stop it.

Dream or Reality of life? Which U wanna put on above?

My parents' expactations and pushes at me, the society which don't allow success without an academic degree and my dream which is too nice to give up.

When I was young, my dream was an artist. Any artist whatever, musician, film director or some celebrity. Such temparature make me a talented person in many ways, though I say it which shouldn't. In my life, I have tried to achive my some dreams, but I had to give up with 2% lack of talents. In middle school, I gave up piano because I couldn't get into art school. After that I gave up playing soccer because of parents' other expactation let me study. I was keen on HipHop and rapping but I found I don't have really good rap skills after 10 monthes my life in HipHop club.

All being artists or players requires outstanding talents and education from when they were in egg. But film or some media artists is different. Getting chance is more important than having skills. In film or media area, a lot of talented people blame someone who are on mainstream but have a lack of talent. Joel Schumacher's movies are always crap! but he is still making film in Hollywood. I also don't like him but I am not be cynical to him. At least he got the chance to move on mainstream and he did it!

Actually I am not really sure about my potential to achieve my dream but in media area, I can wish to get some chances which may come to me luckily!

If u blame me like "You are a person who wish mere chance", I can't refute you completely but...
I am just saying this field of job is like I said